I really have no idea what I plan on saying in this post, but it's very late, I'm the only one awake and I was given some very horrible news this evening. I have no one to speak to at the moment and I don't know if I can calm down and sleep until I get a few things out.
My grandfather passed away around 9:00pm on September 22, 2013. He was the young age of 83. I never really imagined this day would come. Of course, death happens to everyone, but you can never truly grasp the concept until it is too late.
There are things that have made this a little easier for me. One is that we knew this was coming. He was taken to the ER last Friday. He was given oxegen from a Bipap machine for one full day. We were told at that hospital visit he would not get better. It gave us all a little clarity of the situation and maybe a little closure of some sort. Second, he had made his peace. As horrible as it might seem to me, he was ok with this. He was told the news and told to share it with his family and he understood that through and through. Third, his last wish was to see his baby one last time. My aunt (there youngest child and also their only girl) lives in Texas, which is a long way from us. She was coming into town on Saturday and I truly believe he was holding on for her. She had arrived and got to spend some time with him. His wish was granted. Most importantly, he was in no pain. He assured me of this every day I got to spend with him. The trouble he had was his breathing, but he had assured me that it was not painful.
My grandad is the best man I've ever met, and he raised the second best man I've ever met and that is my Father. Both of them are people who I can alwas count on. I am truly the person I am today because of those two men.
My greatest accomplishment in life is making my family proud. My grandad did not hide that from me. He made sure I knew that he was proud.
I got to spend a good amount of time with him over this last week and I wouldn't have changed any of that for the world. This afternoon I did get to spend a few hours with him. I did not physically say "goodbye", but my time was well spent and I will never forget that. This last week will always be in my mind and my heart.
My dad told me once, "I have always said they are saving a special seat in Heaven for Grandad." That time has come and he will fill that seat, although it isn't a seat, it's a throne and he will sit there with pride and happiness.
With this, I say my true goodbyes to one of the best men who ever walked this Earth. You go fill that throne and save us all a seat!
R.I.P
John Willie McGarr
09/11/30 - 09/22/13
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